When God closes doors...he opens others...

Okay...so I should probably start at the beginning...I have been looking for a job as a police officer. There are several reasons that I want it: bigger salary, better benefits, stepping stone, closer to home, etc. So I have told pretty much everybody that I know that I'm going for this. I've been training...running, doing push ups, sit ups...etc. Well, I was really stoked about this one in Streamwood. It was the closest one by far that I could find. It paid okay as far as police work goes: 50 thousand a year. It would only take about 15 minutes to get to work... etc. I busted my butt to get all of the things in on time. Well, I don't know if it was just bad timing or that I wasn't really thinking it all the way through. The main test (physical test: this crazy thing where we have to lift 58 percent of our body weight, do 31 push ups, and run a mile and a half and a mental test) was on a Sat (actually this past Saturday). I ended up changing my schedule around so that I could go. Well, even before I went, I was having second thoughts. I was exhausted from running around all week long. I was stressed out because I didn't know if I could pass it. On top of everything else, Jeff was moving. Well, the night before (Friday), I had to work until 11 and didn't get home until 12. I went over to Jeff's and was helping them out until 5 in the morning. Needless to say I didn't go. My thoughts on it...I figured it was bad timing and it was better to be there for Jeff rather than go for something that I wasn't even sure that I felt a hundred percent about. After the test was over, I was a little sad, but I figured that I had made the right decision. Well, my dad and my stepmom asked me how it had gone. I told them the truth and why I didn't go. I couldn't believe that my stepmom got mad. The first words out of her mouth were why...and then "don't ever do something like that again". From my dad it was: "I hope Jeff knows what you gave up for him"...Well as you can imagine I got mad, because it was my decision not theirs. But I thought that I held myself together pretty well and I said "Well, if God really wants it to happen, he'll give me another opening". I believed it at the time, but I didn't realize how right I was...Today when I went online to look to see if there was anything else open and low and behold Elgin has a test coming up...it was posted yesterday. And get this...it is even closer than streamwood (I live in Elgin) AND it pays more (about 55,000) a year. How's that for awesome? So I am REALLY excited about this and I pray that this is the right thing and the right timing for me. I'm going to train harder and hopefully do well. So if you would be willing to, say a prayer on my behalf, cause I may need it.

Okay...so I haven't updated this thing for a while. On New Year's Eve, I got asked out. I couldn't believe it, but Jeff and I are dating. We are still kind of rocky when it comes to communication. THere are some things that we need to work out.

On the other hand, I hate my job. I don't know what I'd be happy with though. I don't know if I would be happy on another 9-5 job. I want a job that's early enough, but flexible enough. Everybody keeps telling me that I'm young so it's good that I'm figuring this out now. However, what if my perfect job doesn't exist? Should I be just free lancing this? I want to eventually get a job that I can work from my house, whether it be online classes or writing a book etc. Maybe, I could just do that...I want to try and see if I can write a book. I have lots of ideas...the problem is getting that down on paper and having the patience to sit down and write...I will update you more on how the whole book is coming...

Rantings from the same old crap

Rantings from the same old crap

The traveling ghosts